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so I've been using LJ as a private sounding board as of late - considering fb has all my friends and family and myspace is dead.

this year is going tons better - we won in the court case against his ex - in order to see the kids. Though that was short lived when she started filing false children services reports against me. We're currently getting ready to go back to family court and have also filed a civil lawsuit against her.

Chris and I - well it is what it is I guess. Things were getting better - or so I thought until this weekend. some people, some things, just never change.

Which makes this....even harder

we'll be introducing the newest addition to the family in December. I want to be excited and thrilled and over joyed. but the only thing I can think is - im not willing to deal with his antics any more. either man up - or move out really. it's not what i want, for him to leave.....not what i want at all. I want himt o man up, be the man he's supposed to be for me and his family and make the commitment I want. The choice is his - I can do nothing anymore besides wait.

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begintoxhopex
May. 18th, 2010 08:43 pm (UTC)
I hate not feeling in control of things. I also hate wanting to shake the life out of my significant other!
eledaisy
May. 18th, 2010 10:13 pm (UTC)
sounds like you have a lot going on - one day at a time :)
afistinthefrill
May. 19th, 2010 02:37 am (UTC)
congratulations on the baby, love! despite the circumstances, i'm really sorry they're as shitty as they are :(
begintoxhopex
May. 19th, 2010 06:55 am (UTC)
I adore your icon!!!!
callmemuse328
May. 19th, 2010 06:53 pm (UTC)
theyre getting better - we sat down this morning and talked about a bunch of stuff - got stuff out in the open and things seem to be different. For starters its the first time he's ever just man'd up and said "Im sorry I was wrong" point blank with no excuses and no reasons.... im not perfect in all this by far please dont think that but i know what im asking for and what I want isnt like asking for a million $$ movie deal or something.

Sometimes I feel like we dont even have a chance to be happy with all the stress that is CONSTANT in our life because if his ex. in the past 3 months she tried to have my children taken away - called children services on me and accused me of molesting his kids, all which were dropped but none the less....and it never stops. she is always pulling something.
afistinthefrill
Aug. 13th, 2010 02:12 am (UTC)
hi sweetest...just realized i haven't heard anything from you in awhile, so i wanted to check in <3 i hope you're okay!
callmemuse328
Aug. 16th, 2010 10:44 pm (UTC)
Thanks so much lady - actually we just got our internet back and things have been all over the place lately - im gonna make a post here in a few with details =) thanks again dear
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